If YOU could know?

What if you could know the day you died? What if you could know the way you would die, and where, and why and all those other questions that plague a human mind in deep contemplation. Now if you could, if you had that oppurtunity... would you? I mean think about it, you could plan your life around your death, you could do all you wanted to do before the appointed time. You could plan to be in hospital to peacefully end your last few days. You could (God Forbid) repent at the end, and still have ''enjoyed'' a life of sin.
But!
Do you know what i think? I think that if you had that oppurtunity you would freeze. You would freeze, when faced with the cold certainty and reality that you WILL die, and you will at a predetermined and set date would freeze you solid. You see most humans live in a state of denial. Since they assume that death is many decades off they can put the fear and worry at the back of their mind. Because after all, admit it, its so easy to lie to yourself. I mean you are probably the most gullible person you ever met. You manage to convince yourself to believe lies everyday. Think of all the times youve told yourself you were inferior, or that you sucked, or that you couldnt do something. Those are all Grade A lies and you beleive them.
Coming back to the topic.
IF you could have that choice i pray you wouldnt take it, because a life with a end in sight is not a journey, its a commute. Its not a joyous and exciting and sad and emotion filled event, its a terrible experience overshadowed by the constant date of the end. Its like being on the last day of a holiday. Its just like every other day, but it feels different because the end is in sight, its so tangibly present that its unavoidable.
As i end, i encourage all to take heart, and to live all your days as if it was your last, because it could be. But more importantly, dont obsess over the what will happen, obsess over what is happening. The future will come, inevitably and inexorably it marches towards us. Worrying wont bring it any faster or slower. So you should just shut the **** up and enjoy life lol.
Lewi4 out